7th day

On 7th February, I went to do a bhcg. What does that mean? It's a blood test to determine if I was pregnant. Just the weekend before, I used 2 home pregnancy kits and both showed positive. So on this day, I finally got confirmation from the bhcg that I was pregnant!! Whoopie!!

I was told to wait out a couple of weeks before I do an ultrasound as it was too early. On 22 feb at my scan, i was told no fetal pole detected. My world came crashing down. I cried buckets and did not know how to react. Again, I was told to wait as it could be slow fetal growth. I held out for another couple of weeks but on 7th march, one month exactly since my positive news, I was declared to have a blighted pregnancy.

I was slated for an evacuation today. In other words, removal of the dead sac but I guess someone above decided not to let me go through this pain. I actually miscarried myself last Friday at home. Was in the bathroom when my sac just plopped out of me. It was gross and it looked like I just delivered an alien.

So here I am, in pain coz the doc had to give me some meds to ensure I dispel everything. I can feel the cramping and boy, the feeling ain't great. Then again, no physical pain can beat the emotional pain.......